Updates

I know it's been awhile since I last wrote a blog but the truth is it's been difficult to type with my fingers crossed. My husband and I want this to work out so badly that we cannot put into words.

I can add that we are traveling down a better path. Two out of the three eggs retrieved did fertilize and were successfully transferred on the third day (last Friday). The embryos were graded at  9 and 6 cells. I've read that embryos should have 8 cells or more in order to be successful for transfer day 3. The doctor who performed the transfer seemed pleased and said they were baby ready. For the first time ever I can honestly admit to feeling pain free. By this time in my cycle I would be in such agony that it would hurt to walk. I am still taking prenatal vitamins along with progesterone inserts and estrogen pills. Thank goodness for not having to do any more injections. The injections lasted six days and weren't very fun...to say the least. I did suck it up and did what needed to get gone. I'm good on needles for quite some time. The doctors visits still remain for blood monitoring checking progesterone and estrogen levels.

I am still amazed that we have gotten this far into our journey. Our attitude has always remained positive and we kept focusing on moving forward. Time will tell what the next step will be. Thank you to all who have taken the time to read this blog and follow our journey. Your love and support means the world to us!

Houston, We have lift-off.

It's been decided that tomorrow will be our retrieval day. We are very excited and hopeful but understand that things might not work out to plan. Our attitude throughout this whole process has always been to hope for the best but expect the worst. Time will tell at this point.

So Far,,,Not So Good

Today we went back to the doctor which seemed to be the 10th visit this week. I feel like a permanent fixture at that office. I saw a different doctor because my doctor wasn't in the office. We had been informed that I was only able to produce three eggs when I was under the impression I was carrying five. Either way, five or three is not a very good number ideally for IVF retrieval. In a perfect world I would produce ten or more but I guess I just need to be grateful of what I have. I knew going into this process that I might not be able to produce more than five eggs. Unfortunately only three could be what we are going to be working with. The doctor did toss out the idea that we might want to terminate this cycle and possible try again next month. We could run into the risk of next month of being capable of producing only one or two eggs. It's just an endless road of possibilities.

My thoughts and feelings are at this point, go through with the cycle! We have gotten this far and although our chances seem very slim to none, we do believe in miracles and defying the odds. Keep those prayers coming & those fingers crossed!

So Far,,,,So Good.

It's been five days since I started the stimulating hormones. They have me on Menapur & Follistim. Since I am getting closer to ovulation, I am now using Ganirelix to prevent ovulation. I've experienced some headaches and dizziness within the last two days. Today I felt nauseous and lightheaded. The doctor said it was contributed towards an increase in estrogen. My ovaries are responding well to stimulating hormones and I have five potential egg candidates so far! At this point, my retrieval date could be as early as this Wednesday. I was so excited when the doctor delivered me that news today. This means that I will only have to administer possibly 8 days of injections instead of 10.  Not only that, I will hopefully be on the road to bigger and better news!!

A New Start

My husband and I have been preparing ourselves for the past year knowing that someday we would need to decide if IVF is best for us. At this point, everything else we tried was a failure. IVF seems to be our only hope of ever having a chance of starting our family and managing my Endo. We have worked so hard to get to this point and there is no turning back. It is a chance we are willing to take and we have been educated and informed of the process. I will begin my first day of injections tomorrow and this will continue for ten days. I can't say I feel nervous about giving myself the injections or even knowing I would require surgery because I am focused on the "prize" at the end of the road. This whole experience is starting to make sense and I can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel. Wish us luck!!!

Why do bad things happen to good people?

I ask this question quite a few times in my head on a day to day basis. I have been told "That's just life, sweetie. Life has it's twists & turns and road blocks along the way". In that case, I need to find a detour quickly. Alright that is how it is going to be. I just have to hang in there and stay strong which is sometimes easier said than done. I feel like I am trapped in a bubble in the middle of a busy intersection. I am not concerned with people watching me but me watching them go about their everyday business. Until then, I just want to wake up from this complete nightmare and have it all make sense.

Better Luck Next Month

I am saddened to add that my first cycle of IUI was a failure. On a brighter note, we always have next month. At this point anything is possible. It is a new year, a new start and a clean slate. I have to admit I was disappointed but I always knew that going into this that there wouldn't be any guarantees. I felt like I prepared for a test, studied my brains out only to learn that I failed miserably. Feeling sorry for yourself will only prevent you from moving forward. Until than, the sky is the limit and once again time will tell.