A New Start

My husband and I have been preparing ourselves for the past year knowing that someday we would need to decide if IVF is best for us. At this point, everything else we tried was a failure. IVF seems to be our only hope of ever having a chance of starting our family and managing my Endo. We have worked so hard to get to this point and there is no turning back. It is a chance we are willing to take and we have been educated and informed of the process. I will begin my first day of injections tomorrow and this will continue for ten days. I can't say I feel nervous about giving myself the injections or even knowing I would require surgery because I am focused on the "prize" at the end of the road. This whole experience is starting to make sense and I can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel. Wish us luck!!!

Why do bad things happen to good people?

I ask this question quite a few times in my head on a day to day basis. I have been told "That's just life, sweetie. Life has it's twists & turns and road blocks along the way". In that case, I need to find a detour quickly. Alright that is how it is going to be. I just have to hang in there and stay strong which is sometimes easier said than done. I feel like I am trapped in a bubble in the middle of a busy intersection. I am not concerned with people watching me but me watching them go about their everyday business. Until then, I just want to wake up from this complete nightmare and have it all make sense.

Better Luck Next Month

I am saddened to add that my first cycle of IUI was a failure. On a brighter note, we always have next month. At this point anything is possible. It is a new year, a new start and a clean slate. I have to admit I was disappointed but I always knew that going into this that there wouldn't be any guarantees. I felt like I prepared for a test, studied my brains out only to learn that I failed miserably. Feeling sorry for yourself will only prevent you from moving forward. Until than, the sky is the limit and once again time will tell.